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Shouting, shouting and more shouting. That was the only sound that had filled the air of our apartment since I had gotten in today. I had received a letter from the Mississippi Institute of Technology awarding me a full scholarship if I joined next month in September. “Why the fuck do you want to fly halfway around the world for some fucking Uni?” Calum shouted at me.
“Because its the Uni I want to go to and incase you didn’t realise this its my fucking choice.” I shouted back just as fiercely.
“And what about me, did you give me any thought in this?”
“You’re not home half of the time anyways, do you think about me then?” I seethed running a hand through my hair and pulling gently at the roots as I tried my best not to let the anger control me.
“You knew what came with being my girlfriend.”
“I can deal with that. I can deal with the hate I get from the fans, I can deal with waiting up all night so I can phone you and hear your voice, I can even deal with you being away half of the time. What I can’t deal with is the fact you think it’s double standards.”
“Me? How?”
“You think it’s alright for me to wait but not you. It’s alright for you to be half way around the world but not me. How us that not double standards? I wait because I love you and I want to see you happy, why can’t you just do the same?”
“I don’t force you to wait, you make that decision yourself. I don’t think me being in a band that’s blowing up is anything compared to going to some stupid Uni. It’s not exactly something special is it?” He spat and that was the last straw. He realised straight away what he had said and took a step towards me but I took a step backwards.
“It doesn’t compare does it not?” I choked out trying not to shout at him because if I do I will punch him square in the jaw. “I may not be in a band and I may not be famous or talented but one thing I can guarantee is that this Uni is special to me and if you dot like that then it’s fucking tough.”
“Baby I really didn’t mean it like that I just…” he started but I didn’t want to hear any of his sorry excuses.
“No Calum it’s what you’ve been wanting to say this entire time you just didn’t have the balls to.” I began walking towards the door because if I have to look at him any longer I seriously will deck him.
“Where are you going?” He stuttered out and I could feel his presence right behind me as I stopped at the front door.
“Don’t know, anywhere that’s not here.” I shrugged my hand reaching for the doorknob but his hand landed on my wrist stopping me and I instantly jerked away from him seeing the hurt in his eyes. “I swear to god, one more word and I won’t come back.” I threatened and he just stepped away from me letting me go.
When I got outside I went to the little park not far from my apartment and took a seat on one of the swings. I felt worthless. Calum’s words had made me feel worthless. I sat and I cried because I needed to let it all out before I did something I would regret later on. After a couple of hours when night had fallen and my tears had dried up I slowly made my way back to the apartment hoping Calum would be asleep by the time I got back. When I opened the door I was disheartened to see him sat on the couch phone held to his ear which he dropped to the floor immediately and started to make his way over to me but stopped when he saw how angry I still was at him and he retreated a few steps. “You can take either the couch or the bed?” I offered and he looked at me sadly.
“Couch.” He mumbled and I walked into our shared bedroom and climbed into the bed. As soon as the smell of him hit me I began crying all over again as I stared at the door desperately wanting to feel his warm embrace. I had to remind myself that I was mad at him just to refrain from going and crushing him with hugs but after a couple of hours of staring at the door it became to much for me to handle.